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Sunday, November 29, 2015

Loss

Well, my plan to blog again has been put on hold for awhile again. Last Friday my Mother passed on, not unexpected but very hard anyway, she was 91 years. Up until 6 months ago she was still going and doing. Then she took a fall at home and just never regained her will to go on. My Sister Carol was her main caregiver with support from youngest Sister Janna and her husband Ken. My living so far away has left me feeling like a shirker, as my only contribution was verbal, I did get to talk to Mom every other day.                                          Then the following day a very dear "brother" friend passed on. He was a great guy, and such a wonderful singer and musician, when you could talk him into it.                              Then yesterday my brother-in-law Joe passed on. OK enough!!!!  I almost don't want to answer the phone.
  It's not just my loss of course, there are families left behind to deal with these losses also. We are none of us guaranteed tomorrow as we all know and should live each day fully. I tell myself this every day but I don't think I'm listening.  I'm still, two years later, trying to deal with the loss of my husband. I feel like I'm on a slide barreling down hill,  every once in awhile I try to climb back up, then I seem to lose my footing and down I go again....Oh boo hoo..enough already.
  I have been doing a little beading and watercolors, but not much. I do a lot in my mind just can't seem to get it done physically.
   Well enough of my whining....tomorrow, tomorrow, or tomorrow........maybe.

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