"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would have not a single bit of talent left, and could say: "I used everything you gave me."
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I have finished my January piece for Chris. I found myself making excuses to myself for not working on this piece everyday. And today I was feeling great that I was about to finish the piece (as yet to be attached to a "page") and suddenly found myself crying. I kept thinking about what Chris said to me when we moved to Alaska. I was talking to him on the phone, he was about to turn four, and he said "You come back here to your house where you belong". Living so far away, we missed so much of our Grandchildrens growing up. We are lucky that their parents kept us in photos and stories. We so enjoyed every visit we made to them. Our children grow up so fast and have their owns lives separate from us. As a family we think we know each other so well...how wrong we are. We forget that we each have our own private sides. We just have to love each other unconditionally, well anyway that's what I believe. I love you Chris..forever.....
The attached photo is proof that I am actually working on my first Journal page. This is the first page of the Journal that I am dedicating to our Grandson Chris. Chris would have been 22 January 10th. Such a loss. I wonder if we will ever get over it. He was such a treasure. I am beading over a black and white photo. I am using black thread to grey my white and to give the piece that grainy look that black and white photos have.
Ok, once again..I accidentally posted my remarks on the Bead Journal Blog instead of my own. What I was saying was that I have finally started one of my January Journal pages. It feels good to finally be working on my journal. I am attaching a photo of Jack and I at the Ice show "The Grinch" at the huge Hotel/Lodge the Gaylord Texan near Dallas. It was an amazing place. We enjoyed our visit with our Son and his family for Christmas and New Years. The weather could have been warmer, but I am thankful for the warm days we had. We are both battling colds right now, but glad to be back in Alaska for now.